Mom too is being given morphine as well anti-anxiety meds to queit her. Sometimes she relaxeswith our touch and at other times we are the enemy. I do not take her rejection personally because I know it isn't her but the disease.

Thanks   she would be proud to know how I am struggling to keep my emotions under control but would have a cow if she knew I am on the verge of a mental and physical breakdown.  After my niece had to drive my car home becauswe my sister was afraid to let me drive, I knew then I was handling this wrong. I am going to try leaving it all in His hands not just part of it.

Thanks so much.  I want a peaceful ending for Mom but I have to leave it all in God's hands and not just part. 

It certainly isn't easy losing a parent. After living with and taking care of and dialyzing my father he passed  after 8 years, thankfully, in his sleep. My mother, who had Alzhiemer's Disease lived for 10 1/2 years. She been in the hospital and just came home when she passed after being home for just 2  1/2 hours. She passed over in my arms and I was thankful for that. But I know they're now not suffering.

Our hearts and prayers go out to you, your sister and your mother. God will see you through this.

Junie & Papa Allen 

Thinking of you, you are very strong and I know your mother is so proud.

This is such a very, very hard time for you.  I had sat with mum a couple of times during the weeks before she died...they gave her morphine and she had a very bad reaction to it...sitting up in bed screaming out "Mother, Mother" then "diamond. diamond" over and over and looking so distressed.  It was so painful to watch.

 Does it help to soothe her brow, tickle her arm or any of those teeny touching sort of things? 

My heart goes out to you and your sister and you are all in my prayers.

Barb